[Why do you think he called you an idiot? He was completely, nearly painfully honest, and got thrown back words and concepts he had never thought of. And, no, he doesn't see himself as possible to mend. Abe to function, yes. To be 'normal' - not really.]

My training started when I was three. I do not recall a time when I knew what believing was. What am I supposed to 'grow' into when I don't have a basis to start from whatsoever? I know the words. I know the definitions. I do not know what they mean.

How am I supposed to do them?